Sick and Homesick

One of the worst parts of being sick at college is learning how to care for yourself. It's truly challenging to get used to going out to the store for some Pepto and soup, even when you feel absolutely awful. It's hard not to just say, "screw it, I'm done, I'm not cut out for college, I'm just going to move home and work at Big Lots until I die." But its not realistic. You have to move on and move out at some point. The challenge is making that adjustment. It's really painful to wake with a start when you think you heard your Mom waking up or your Dad knocking on your door. Sure messages from home help but they still sting because you're uncertain when you'll come home again. A week? Two weeks? A month? I can't tell if it's more painful to have a hug and warm bed waiting an hour away or a 1000 miles away. All I know is that my stomach hurts as much as my heart right now.